Looks like the girl I like, just wants to be friends. Yeah what the hell did I expect. Faen i helvete, detta e jo heilt jævlig.
And fuck here comes the pain
I just got told by the very girl I have very strong feelings for, that she could never feel the same back. I feel so lost, I don’t have words. Feels like shit.
I have no idea what to say. Right before Christmas, worst pre-gift there is. My heart, I don’t know.
And the worst part is, I still haven’t fully realized it yet. It’s too hard to comprehend.
First tonight my room-mate threw me out of my room, because this girlfriend decided to sleep over. I at first didn’t mind, until they fucking decided to borrow my bed. Then I still didn’t give a fuck, but a little bit against it. My stuff was thrown everywhere, which sucks.
Didn’t want to be in the house and started to text people. Then there was this movie in another house, which I joined to see. She was there. I feel asleep during the movie and woke up by her fucking messing up my neck with my scarf. I was a bit angry about that, however then I had to leave because two wanted to be alone. Yeah that’s rigth, I was thrown out there too. So I feel like shit right now and totally unwanted. To top it, now I can’t even fucking fall asleep again. FML
And I really hope she wasn’t one of those two, because then this race is over and I lost. I always lose. This is why I never get too connected with girls, they always seem to break my heart. Or stamp on it really hard, at least.
But then again that’s exactly why I’ve never had a girlfriend. I somehow never dare to open, because it never seems worth it. I’ve always been alone. And I’m still not sure if this is good. I just know it will end before it begins and I’ll end up alone again. That’s why. I don’t know.
Why does everything have to be expensive…
You know that I don’t have any money and you decided to put the Dark Eldar on pre-order today! ARRHGHKRTKLF
I still can’t shave, because the shaving machine part is still fucking gone. Damn you wind, why did you have to steal it. I really want to shave now.
Faen må gå hardt på flaska neste helg, vess det blir nåkka. Ellers kjøpe æ telt og har en privat fæst. Desperat? NEI
In one moment we talk and laugh alone, the next she goes away to snuggle with him. I’m all alone again and feel so unwanted.