I will talk to her, next week when I’m back at school. Just sort things out, get my heart crushed for sure. I just don’t like playing this game anymore, it gets harder for every second. She probably only sees me as just another friend.
Trying to lock away my feelings always seems to work
But then again that’s exactly why I’ve never had a girlfriend. I somehow never dare to open, because it never seems worth it. I’ve always been alone. And I’m still not sure if this is good. I just know it will end before it begins and I’ll end up alone again. That’s why. I don’t know.